Working on our Life Pattern
And God saw everything that he had made, and behold, it was very good.
Romans 12:2 (NIV)
 Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will.
1. From Thorns to Cure
2 Corinthians 12:7 (NIV)
 or because of these surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.
“We must allow the Word of God to confront us, to disturb our security, to undermine our complacency and to overthrow our patterns of thought and behavior.” ― John R.W. Stott
2. From curses to grace
2 Corinthians 12:7b - 8
[7b] Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me.  Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. (NIV)
Revelation 12:10b (NIV)
[10b].For the accuser of our brothers and sisters, who accuses them before our God day and night, has been hurled down.
My unhealthy Pattern though my spiritual journey
a) Presses - Current pain presses on past pain which is buried within soul
b) Amplifies - Undealt past pains amplifies the pain of current situation, causing me to overreact
c) Addictive - Unconsciously guard against more pain or medicate with addiction behaviors
Dr Brene Brown 12 common areas of shame
ii) Mother & fatherhood
iii) Money and Work
vi) Mental and Physical health
xi) Surviving Trauma
xii) Being labeled
2 Corinthians 12:9
 Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me.  But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. (NIV)
9 But his answer was: “My grace is all you need, for my power is greatest when you are weak.” I am most happy, then, to be proud of my weaknesses, in order to feel the protection of Christ's power over me. (GNT)
Psalms 23:1&2 (NIV)
[23:1] The LORD is my shepherd, I lack nothing.  He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,